I am definitely lonesome. I've probably lost close to 80% of my friends since the pandemic years. I guess it's not so much a loss a it is a drifting. The fissure those few of years of isolation created have had far-reaching consequences. I think making plans to socialize just feels overly stressful to a lot of people now. After five years of increasingly sporadic face-to-face time a lot of friendships have collapsed. At fifty-three many long-time friends I felt would be with me for the rest of my days have become distant now. Texts often go unanswered for days and calls have become few and far between. I miss the richness this brought to life.