I think that doubt is the best proof that you have control over your life. For example, when you hear something murmuring far in the back of your mind that makes you feel uncertain about a decision, that's called a conscience, isn't it? Especially in times of crisis of a general or personal nature, the felt uncertainties are a sign of your will. It doesn't matter if you are that type or the other, I would think, if a very serious question is bothering you, does it?

Sometimes, haven't you had the feeling that you decided against your conscience and then regretted it, for example? And where you were courageous despite uncertainty, did it feel coherent? If we were totally attached to the thread of fate or to the cold determinism of biologism or materialism, we would know neither doubt nor ambiguity, I would think.

I am not a follower of solipsism. I would say that it is not at all possible that nothing exists outside of one's own consciousness. For that, I just imagine myself living alone on a deserted island or a completely deserted city (which is impossible in and of itself) - where would I learn anything from, what thoughts would inspire me and give me ideas about life? Nothing comes from me and from me alone, I depend on the consciousness of others as much as they depend on mine. Where the human standard fails, I believe in another, i.e. God's (which can also be translated as "conscience"), because after all, it would be exceedingly funny if I said a prayer that began with "Almighty Peter, ...". Then I would think of Peter, who is anything but mighty (but fallible).

There is a huge effort in the mainstream to stop us from exploring this realm and answering these fundamental questions,

Let us not being stopped but go forward to contemplate about these very questions and choose or ladies and gents wisely ;) nothing can come between the covenant between man and woman, if it is true and sincere.

which is what intrigued me about your post.

Thank you. Very much appreciate this feedback.