Alright, thanks for making that clear :)

I am not sure whether there is a linear age going on.

I think that it is part of the phenomenon of human existence that what people perceived as normality was and is a reflection of what they perceived as such. One can live well in an existence by not constantly being aware that one's own well-being is at the expense of someone else who is not so well off. It is nonsensical, in my opinion, to constantly feel guilty about this. Especially when I, as an average person, am basically just following what I was born into. The question of guilt doesn't arise for me, I can't help it if things are unfair, just as I can't help it if things are fair. But by blaming myself, I allow myself to be gagged and have the notion poured over me that I can do something to "save the world". Which is, of course, sheer nonsense.

Darkness (or light) cannot equally be applied to all people, many would reply that they perceive nothing dramatic, with which they are right for themselves, how could it be otherwise? It is a thing of impossibility to make it clear to another person who finds everything fine and just that it is not so.

Where one walked in a group of quite normal people and then suddenly realises that they are wolves, the wolves will still say that they are not.

This can cause despair and that is, how I oftentimes feel nowadays. For me, the most difficult task is to put trust into those near me, who themselves lost trust in me. The only way to prove that I am trustable is to stay calm and friendly. Without losing myself.

Science lives from doubt, is what I think. If there is no doubt allowed it's not science. Scientific doubts come with delays, and what is presently put into consensus will be questioned in the future. Those premises though, which never have been questioned ever after the consensus, have a life-time of their own, which makes them into doctrine. We know, those are the hardest things to question, those affairs we take as a matter of fact and never even spend the slightest thought about them.

Greetings to you :)