this blog will bore you. maybe.

first things first: i'm not exactly new to hive.

No, really. I've been around since time immemorial. (Kidding... or not.) And you're probably thinking, "Then what the heck is she doing here?"

Well, the answer is simple. I have no bucket to fill in with my stories. Seriously, it's just that.

a little more context, in case you're -- you know -- maybe interested.

So yeah. Hi, I'm Erang. Rang to others. Maybe you have already come across one of my posts or artworks and know me as @erangvee. I make a lot of drawings, which I especially love to do. To be frank, the world called art has become a safe space for me. Engaging myself in doing illustrations is just very therapeutic to me, too.

In fact, the below sketch is a portrait drawing I did of myself. It was from last year, just after I got my first COVID vaccine shot. I've never really shared this illustration before except over at noise.cash, where I share a lot more personal things about myself.

Now I'm sharing it here because I intend to make this space my new personal space. I want to be able to let out what I want to share, and not really care if someone's around to read it. Maybe I can make this a journal, or a blog, or a diary.

i want to prove myself that i am more than just the person who loves to draw.

I think I might have had some sort of identity crisis one way or another. You're probably thinking, "Uh, what did she say?"

When I was younger, I wanted to become many things. At some point, I wanted to pursue a career in the arts, although I wasn't so certain how I would fare. Then I wanted to become an engineer. Sometimes, I wished I was a doctor (although I'm really scared of open wounds). And you know what? I didn't turn out to become any of those.

I ended up becoming a computational scientist. I work a lot around computers... even supercomputers. I do a lot of programming, and currently some management thing.

And there are many stories behind this screen. Stories about how I'm doing at work, what I've been up to, interesting people I had the pleasure to meet, beautiful places I was most fortunate to visit.

Previously, I didn't see the need to open a new account for me to dump all my personal stories. I sincerely believed @erangvee will be enough. But my @erangvee account has become a solid art account and is very special to me, I can't bear to turn it into dumping site of stories I wanted to share that may not interest the people who followed me there for my art. And lately, so much has been happening around me, and I wanted to somewhere to write about them.

I'm a different person outside my erangvee persona, outside the world called art. So here we are.

and here's me in a nutshell... just in case you might be intrigued.

what you might see, should you follow me here:

A little bit of everything, I guess? Let's see... Off the top of my head, you might see me post about

• Stories about my day. But only when something extraordinary happened. When the story is something I think will make someone chuckle at how clumsy I get, or experience secondhand embarrassment from something I just did.
• Dream journals? Maybe I'll share them here, too. They're mostly crazy. I always dream at night, and when I am not feeling lazy and the dream remains vivid, I immediately write down the details in my notes. I have a couple already in my journal starting 2018.
• Some S&T stuff. I'm back at school, pursuing my graduate studies in computer science. Coming from a physics background, I learn so many new things each day I attend classes. I might share some of the interesting ones I learn in here.
• Food trips. I'm a foodie in body, mind, heart, and soul. I love it every time I and my friends try a new restaurant in town, or when I eat something I'd never had before. If the food tripping turns out extraordinary, I might get to share them here, too.
• Random things. Like why is the keyboard the way they are? What are the first English words? I don't know, something I might have picked up watching Vox over at Youtube. Or, heck, even criminal investigations! Or things about airplanes, because I adore airplanes.
• Behind-the-scenes on my artworks? Maybe.

famous last words, i guess.

I just want to write. This won't be just an account I'll dump stories, feelings, and frustrations on. It will hopefully also serve as training. I want to be able to communicate better. Storytelling is one thing, but actually articulating stories in a way that can grip someone else is a goal to me.

So this blog will probably bore you on some days and intrigue you on others. But I intend to pour over here whatever I can, whenever.

eeep. postscript! just wanna share these sketches i've never shared before here on hive.

Here's a couple of sketches from last year that I didn't share over at my @erangvee account... because, well, I didn't want that account to be filled with sketches. :(