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Los saludo con afecto.
Paciente... Es una palabra muy fuerte cuando estamos atravesando situaciones serias de salud y estamos en consultas m茅dicas. Ser pacientes de paciencia para esperar nuestro turno y que somos pacientes por recibir atenci贸n m茅dica.
Hace muchos a帽os esperaba verme con mi m茅dico de siempre, que no pod铆a porque viv铆a en un monte alejado de la civilizaci贸n e imposibilitada de trasladarme lejos. Al mudarme postergu茅 la consulta por razones econ贸micas, siempre hab铆a otra urgencia primero. Pero ya no soport茅 m谩s las dolencias.
Desde hace un buen tiempo veo que el tiempo y yo no nos ponemos de acuerdo, que lleva una carrera apresurada por irse, yo necesito tiempo, empezaba a sanar de algunas cosas y tratar de mantener estable otras pero... Ya no deb铆a esperar m谩s, no pod铆a seguir postergado ir a mi m茅dico dada mi condici贸n delicada de salud y soledad. Mi madre y yo 茅ramos solitas en el mundo. Siempre nos apoy谩bamos una a la otra y a veces brome谩bamos que eramos las guardaespaldas de una a la otra.
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I greet you with affection.
Patient... It is a very strong word when we are going through serious health situations and we are in medical consultations. To be patient of patience to wait our turn and that we are patient to receive medical attention.
Many years ago I was waiting to see my usual doctor, but I could not because I lived in a mountain far from civilization and unable to move far away. When I moved I postponed the consultation for economic reasons, there was always another emergency first. But I could not stand the ailments any longer.
For a long time now I see that time and I do not agree, that it has a hurried race to leave, I need time, I was beginning to heal some things and try to keep others stable but.... I could no longer wait, I could no longer put off going to my doctor given my delicate health condition and loneliness. My mother and I were alone in the world. We always had each other's back and sometimes joked that we were each other's bodyguards.
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Ir贸nicamente pens茅 que con mi m茅dico su respuesta o reacci贸n ser铆a m谩s alentadora... Pero no fue as铆.
No queda m谩s que trabajar en m铆 y mantener el control de lo que puedo controlar. Estar en calma porque no me ayuda nada estresarme.
Hace a帽os que no ve铆a a mi m茅dico y 茅l no estaba al tanto de mis patolog铆as. Ponerlo al d铆a con un c煤mulo m谩s de cosas no fue f谩cil.
Hace casi un mes que no sufr铆a de ataques epil茅pticos y pues obvio tuve un episodio ante el doctor, explicarle a 茅l que lo que cre铆amos eran crisis de nervios no eran otra cosa que epilepsias, por obvias razones, los dos episodios de ACV's dejaron muchas secuelas y esos episodios ya no los puedo controlar. As铆 que lo pasamos unos minutos entre tembloriqueos, p茅rdida del habla y dislexia...
Pens茅, fui optimista pensar que seguro me mandar铆a un tratamiento milagroso que pusiera todo en orden. No fue as铆. No puede enviarme tratamiento hasta no saber qu茅 tan "comprometida" (como dijo) estoy. Regresar a casa con varios estudios que debo hacer y esperar los resultados de la biopsia que me hicieron es lo que podemos hacer. Mandarme un tratamiento ahorita solo empeorar铆a mi situaci贸n.
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Ironically I thought that with my doctor his response or reaction would be more encouraging.... But it was not.
There is nothing left but to work on myself and keep control of what I can control. To stay calm because it doesn't help me at all to stress myself out.
I hadn't seen my doctor in years and he wasn't aware of my pathologies. Bringing him up to speed with yet another pile of things was not easy.
It had been almost a month since I had suffered epileptic seizures and obviously I had an episode before the doctor, explaining to him that what we thought were nervous breakdowns were nothing more than epilepsies, for obvious reasons, the two episodes of strokes left many sequels and those episodes I can no longer control. So we spent a few minutes between tremors, loss of speech and dyslexia....
I thought, I was optimistic that he would surely send me a miracle treatment that would put everything in order. It didn't. He can't send me treatment until he knows how "compromised" (as he put it) I am. Going home with several tests to do and waiting for the results of the biopsy I had is what we can do. sending me a treatment now would only make my situation worse.
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As铆 que por ahora solo tengo la fe, luchando contra el miedo y lo desconocido, es la espera paciente de paciencia mientras soy paciente m茅dico.
Quer铆a desahogarme un poco hoy, debo mantenerme optimista, rodeada de palabras bonitas y esperar lo mejor. Estar茅 haciendo mi parte...
Gracias por visitarme.
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So for now I just have faith, fighting the fear and the unknown, it is the patient waiting for patience while being a medical patient.
I wanted to vent a little today, I must stay optimistic, surrounded by kind words and hope for the best. I will be doing my part....
Thank you for visiting me.
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