Over the years, I have noticed my attitude and personality is very different from most people, I have rare habits that are not too common among my gender. I have lived a solo life for as long as I can remember, I enjoy my own company in a very quiet environment, I go out once in awhile or should I say once in a blue moon because I detest crowded areas. I have more online friends than those around me because I'm friendly enough to attract friends but I'm incapable of keeping them around, eventually we just grew apart.
Which means my physical state could be considered nonexistent figure since I barely engage with people around me, the funny aspect of it is that most people believe it is an act of pride or probably because I believe I'm more righteous and better than they are which is entirely not true.
The saddest part of it is that I have tried to engage more but then I realised the reason behind my low level of association with physical friends is because the habits they consider to be fun is extremely irritating to me for instance football, drinking, clubbing e.t.c I prefer to stay indoors and watch movies, read conceptual and philosophical books, write quotes and poems, carry out research on different topics of my choosing and play board games. Like I said my habits are the rare type.
In the mist of my solo existence there is somewhere my presence is mostly felt and only happens during some specific events. I'm not a nerd but engaging in any form of academic discussions that involves critical analysis of trending topical issues or conceptual topics, productive or not I find myself engaging in such argument which mostly occur on social media, most especially WhatsApp since I'm a member of a lot of educational groups and departmental groups. Ever since I have joined hive, I have also grown fond of discord.
I find it difficult to abstain from educational argument, it is my niche. In most cases I get drawn into this argument bit by bit till I'm fully into it and that is because my subconscious is incapable of developing a defence mechanism against engaging in such event, in others words I have not disciplined my mind to the extent I will be willing to abstain from it.
Having to engage online most of the time grants me the privilege of acquiring more online friends compared to physical friends. In fact the truth is that, if I were to meet some friends I have made online, we might not be friends for long because it is easier for me to keep friends online than around me. For a person like me having physical friends tends to be too needy and I don't have enough social energy or vibes to offer to keep physical friends.
Can online friendship replace physical friendship? it all depends on individual personality. Some people prefer to keep friends online while there are others that tends to have the energy to keep face to face friendship, while there are others that can do both. I guess everyone should do what works for them and what they are comfortable with.
This write-up was inspired by weekly featured content titled Online friendships in hive learners community.
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