Imagine growing up in a family you thought was perfect, but wasn't perfect at all.
Imagine you're 5 years old getting sexually abused by a family member, and keeping it a secret so it doesn't break your family apart.
Imagine the abuse continues throughout your teen life, but you still keep it in in fear of breaking up your family.
Life isn't about rainbows and unicorns, life is real, things that happen are real, it's not a movie, it's not a book.
When a child is abused it follows then the rest of their life, there's no forgetting. The bad dreams, the depression, the anxiety attacks continue until it feels like it's gonna drive you insane.
Then you wanna know more, you want to know why it happened. Why he chose you? If your mother knew? If she did why did she let it go on? Why did no one stop him? Why she didn't believe you when you spoke up as a adult?
Were you not special enough? Did she not love you? Then you lose hope with everything in life and feel completely shut down and worthless to everything and everyone in life.
The years pass and you go in and out of relationships, facing more abuse at the hands of a drunk, who says "it wont happen again I'm sorry, I love you". But it happens over and over until you decided to leave before you died.
But you finally found someone to love you as you wanted to be loved or did you? Is he right for you? Will you feel like "he's the one? and you know in your heart you're only there for the kids and that it's a loveless relationship.
Do you stay? Do you pack up and go and start over? What life decisions would you make from this point on? Put yourself in this post, and tell me what if it was you.
