Beautifully written thoughts. Am so happy to read you (finally?) can (start) accept the past, and the situation and move on. I know the feeling you have. Fortunately, I also developed a high level of acceptance, making me deal with everything, including emotions, relatively easily. I can only tell you to continue learning to accept since that gives us rest in the end. Also, this gives us much more time in the here and now, an important element in feeling happy.