And probably this is my biggest problem. I do have goals but I don't know where to start. And at the same time I am shy of starting because it's probably I want to stay relax, lazy. When I start, and I don't get a positive response for some time, I quit.

I don't know if these are the characteristics of a loser. But I do think that I am a loser because with all the facilities if I couldn't do anything that myself or my family is proud of, then I think I am a loser.