mmMMM, a special read .. Thank you for sharing! I understand much of what you said quite deeply... I lived in Tamil Nadu, near KodaiKanal where the locals live very simple lives. but also its very touristic so they are exposed to all the western and Indian temptations and desires.. most of them leave for the cities, except for the farmers.. Its understandable to be curious, to want to try it out..

i preach leaving cities, and would always tell these young Indian boys who wanted to go to Europe.. not to go! what a mistake! These beautiful boys would be totally corrupted and stuck in it im sure..

anyways, i understand FULLY why you might somehow desire to take part in natures cycles.. theres nothing like working with animals or nature, gardens.. it really is just the best!

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