I have been unemployed for 8 months and am disabled. It's been hard finding a job and being in the right frame of mind and physical ability to maintain one when I've had one.

How do I grow as a person and learn how to be successful and self-sufficient enough to begin to plot towards owning a family farm and raising my family there, supplying enough food and material comfort as needed and being active in cultivating both our farm family and our values?