Me too - but, in this one particular instance, I've done quite a bit of reading on Alan and his particular case.

In my opinion, his death is a tragedy because he didn't literally want to die apparently. His stroke right before his death, combined with mental illness, made him not really know what was going on.

The hospital saw this, handed him a form to kill himself, didn't inform him that he could talk to his family about this, and then willingly killed him all the while knowing that his family didn't know.

What happened is essentially no different than a hospital giving a form to someone who cannot read, telling them to sign it and that they would get better if they signed it, and killed them. He did not know what was going on by all indications.

And, as I said in my post, this is triggering to me because I know how medical professionals view mental illness. They view it as something that can either cured or lived-with with heavy medication but very rarely do they just have basic compassion about those people who they don't see as people but as patients.

If you've ever been in a hospital getting "treated" for mental illness, you'll see what I'm driving at. It's pretty horrifying seeing a normal human, maybe with a few screws loose as they say, be forcibly doped up with halidol. They call it "brain-hacking" inside. It's nazi shit.