It's been a while since I experienced a weekend that's so quiet and lonely. The idea started with me thinking about having a good rest after a busy week at work. It started all good in the morning, feeling refreshed and not burdened with loads of work until I overslept and my body became weak and discomforting. Most weekends, I hang out with the boys where we talk about how our weekdays went and sometimes share burdens if there's any. However, it seemed we all wanted to try a weekend where we are all alone, indoors, and probably doing something differently by ourselves. The idea was nice but I realized the weekend was too calm and the feeling of loneliness was written all over the helpless me lying on my bed. I may not be sure, but I believe weekends are for hanging out and that's the best way to spend it except if one has work to do that distracts him from the feeling of loneliness.
I did nothing much today. I couldn't even read a book nor write on my blog, I wasn't feeling that vibe of doing something, everything became tiring and all I remembered doing was sleep and sleep until I needed to eat then resume back to sleeping. I was told the best time to meditate is when we are alone and are in a quiet environment. That doesn't work for me, I tried meditating and like being administered a sleeping pill, I slept off in the process. Maybe that's one of the challenges that comes with the first trial. I just don't like it when I'm alone and everything around me seems quiet, I prefer the noisy place, somehow I'm still able to do whatever I want to do amidst the noisy background. I will keep trying the isolated lifestyle and doing meditation for a month or two and see how well I adapt to staying all by myself.
