Heheh yeah, there are a few meaningful connections, but to be honest I've met people on various platforms for the past 25 years, and kept in touch with essentially none of them. I don't know if I'm unusual that way, or if most people tend not to connect well with purely online friends? Not sure. And no offense meant to anyone, cuz it's not personal. Maybe I'm defective, who knows.

One (and perhaps the main) reason I'm still here though I regret it, is there's no good alternative (yet). I feel like I went the wrong way in a choose your own adventure book, but this is real life, and I can't go back (cheat), and I can't just die and start over. I'm doing the best I can with the mistake(s) I've made, I guess.

Another aspect is that I can't really get my funds out without a smart device and/or bank account and/or giving up my privacy. Crypto was supposed to be private and decentralized, and as I've documented many times, it has become everything BUT those 2 things! I'm looking for ways to do it that don't require things I don't have (bank account or smart device), and don't require me to do things I'm against. The hope is that something will come along for me (and millions like me who are waiting in the wings for real privacy and decentralization). So I'm kinda strung along hoping for that.

Then there's the price, I bough in at $4 or whatever it was at the start of 2018, blew all my BTC (0.2) on it. Seemed like the best idea ever, price was headed above $10 everybody said, etc etc. But as you know, STEEM (and HIVE) is inflating like a mofo, and the value does nothing but drop. This punishes holders and rewards people who earn and cash out. I've NEVER cashed out. So everything I've earned has been reduced by 95% or more in value. Why don't I just cash out and leave? It's complicated! But yeah, the price is probably part of it. Maybe if cashing out was actually going to get me back my 0.2 BTC I sent this platform 4 years ago, or pay me for the 4 years of full time effort I've put in, but that's not the case at the moment.

Note, some of the above factors are still in flux. Things keep changing. Maybe my stars will align at some point, I don't know. Maybe I should take what I can get, and run away now? Shrug. Dunno man! Dunno.