I'm just a big more than "hesitant"... meanwhile my brother today said he won't listen to my side of it because he knows it's incorrect, and values logic and science. Wouldn't science want to hear all the evidence before assuming the hypothesis is already correct? Science doesn't plug its ears. And logic wouldn't shun debate. Logic IS debate. He's completely illogical and unscientific, and won't even hear me for 5 minutes. Not only lost, but ready to strike out at me, like I'm dangerous because I come bearing knowledge. Scary. I'm really afraid about what's coming, especially for myself personally. Everybody has pulled away from me and is taking the stance that I'm mentally ill. I've caught them several times talking about me (in bad ways) behind my back, and each time they justify it. The narrative is already written and I've been able to see through it for years. But they all intend to go down with the ship, and make sure I'm first. 15 years of my research is reduced to "a bunch of crazy conspiracy videos", and my points are ignored because they are instantly labeled "fake news" before even being considered. I'm a smart guy, but I don't know if I can figure this puzzle out.