It's not easy to acknowledge our issues and even harder to acknowledge our accomplishments, so for that I commend you. I don't know if you currently have any spiritual practice, but I'd suggest you develop it or strengthen the one you have. The exhaustion that you feel speaks to me of too much energy spread out across many fronts, some of which you may be unaware of. There are many ways that you can improve that and thus boost your performance in the areas of your life that bring you joy. Thank you for being so open about your situation, it's always beautiful to see the vulnerability that so many exhibit in this platform. Blessings to you!