Sounds quite sad and pathetic, I sympathize with you and I feel for you too.

Anxiety is a very irritable and devastating mental illness to suffer from and I just want to let you know that it's not the end of the world, nothing lasts forever and it will only take a matter of time for you to fight and win this battle with anxiety.

Don't lose hope or feel down and depressed, the feeling of worthlessness might creep in but don't let it overcome or get the better off you, you can win this battle if you stay mentally strong and positively optimistic.

Smile, nothing lasts forever, you'll be okay, you'll see. 😁👊🏻