Hmmmmmm, This is a very long interesting and touching story of your life. It has indeed been a very long journey for you so far, Life is not easy at all and It really came to you.
Depression is a very bad and terrible mental illness to suffer and I believe a lot of people go through it without knowing. You had a really big dream i must confess but achieving it was a very big challenge and that is life for you, Nothing good comes easy. Well, Now I think you would feel some sense of accomplishment for achieving the little you have so far. Even if you didn't achieve any of the dreams that doesn't mean you have to stop and give up. Relentlessness is very well required when chasing a goal becomes there are oo many obstacles on the road to success.

Great exposure in this post and also it was captivating and motivational too.
Respect!

Bless up.