I know that feeling , Bro. I too had that same thought when i was a lot younger, I kept saying I would be this, I would do this and that by this age. But look at me now I'm not sure I have done half of those things I always talked about doing.

I also feel sometimes that I was scammed into adulthood because I was never really told this was how it was going to be. But it's ok, It's alright. We would walk pass this successfully eventually.