I'll tell you what! I perfectly get your point of view and I ain't the type to judge or critisize someone.
But you can't say atheists don't exist. I mean it's evident. Great men like Elon musk, Bill gates are evidence that atheists exist. And as for christians, I don't have to call names because they are almost everywhere in a very loud way. So I think you should have a deeper and more free thought in a place of solitude and figure this shit out.