Well you are not alone. I can relate to this from times past. This came and went on a couple of different occasions in my life during times of intensive stress and inability to control factors that would have an impact on me.
Depression and anxiety have been a more consistent theme in my case. Contributors to the condition are as wide and varied as ways of addressing it.
The big picture-
Depending on your current situation / many factors, there will probably be a handful or just a few practices or remedies that make a big difference for you short term, but you need to support health in all areas, basically upgrading your way of living to prevent recurring problems. This will turn the hardship into a life that´s better than you would have imagined.
It is a mistake to rely on just one ¨fix¨ for this problem. Problems of this nature seem to have a life of their own. They are sneaky, crafty and can morph into other mental illnesses. Itś a real challenge with little or no recognition for progress, but you´ll be rewarded with a better life experience and possibly some mind blowing discoveries along the way by doing what you are doing- reaching out, and having an open mind about transforming the problem.
For a problem that has developed over ten years (mine have developed over a few decades so you are not unique), it is unlikely that anyone will post ¨Tips & Tricks¨ that will free you from ten years of misery, but they can give you good leads for what to look for, choose, start doing so you can add more, build up your health and develop well rounded strategies.
Relief may come soon, or gradually over time provided you are willing and ready to try new things and give them a fair chance to make an impact. This might take patience and tolerance for trial and error. I think you can realize improvement after a few weeks of
Identify less with the fear /emotion. That does not mean try to ignore it. Acknowledge, but without judging it. (this may require some practice). If you try to make an emotion ¨wrong¨, it is as if you are missing the point so emotion serves you by coming back stronger.
At that point you should ask yourself what the fear could be trying to tell you besides that you are afraid that you might do X. Since this is chronic, it still might be about X - something you are neglecting or mis-ordered priorities, etc.. but you may just be finding a way to get the fear itself to make sense- by inventing something to be afraid of. In this case, the fear may be nervous malfunction, chemical imbalance or long held, unresolved trauma that you failed to face and come to terms with. Well I hope that drops a clue but for long term change, but as you might expect, there is a lot more to it.
Sometimes those drugs work for a time, but they lead to problems that get continually more difficult to remedy. Don´t fall into that trap or fall for the lies being told by food and drug agencies about herbs they want to stop you from having access to- like Kratom. Gave me my life back and the will to forge ahead.
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