My mother has dementia, she is 93, and she feels trapped. She wants ‘out’ but she has no means of escape. She blames me.
I also am trapped by the circumstances created by her past decisions. My best is not good enough.
Memories of past traps:
One of the worst situational traps I experienced was in a hospital waiting room. These rooms are usually filled with the family members of those having surgery. I have been in several surgical waiting rooms. They are ‘bad’ places to be. Yet for a time there is no practical escape.
The common feeling is being totally ‘out of control’. Your personal capacity has no influence any more.
Different people have different needs to be in control. Many are addicted to control. Loosing control is not something they will ever accept.
Others have no desire to control. Circumstances may force them, but they too may resist.
The point is... some days none of us are able to live as we choose. On those day... we do our best.
Here is today’s beauty.
