I wish..

I won't ever get past my life not being a fictional story.
Sometimes I wish it was though.
I wish I could run back in time just like Barry Allen and change the course of time.

I know doing this could alter reality but sometimes...
I wish I had the ability to change time.

There are so many things I would do, so many different opportunities I would explore, so many things I would change.

People say the one thing in life that's constant is change.
It happens, people come and go.
Time passes and people grow just like I did.

I remember when I was so eager to be an adult, make my own choices, have my freedom. I wish I had the ability to change time, I would go back to the time when life was so much easier, I would go back to a time when I looked like her.

Time passes in seconds and just those little ticks have the ability to change so much.
I thought I found my soulmate, I really did.
Someone who would be my forever person. I would say I was wrong because forever is supposed to last for well forever.

This was a really happy moment and if I could change time, I'd go back to this day.
Everything happens for a reason, I think things are the way they were meant to be but if I did happen to stumble upon a time machine, I would use it to go back to different points in time and say the words I love you more to her.

Last year, I was on IT and all I wanted to do was escape and get back to school, I didn't actually know what I was going to miss until I left.
My mum and I were two peas in a pods during that period.

I think our relationship transformed from an African Mother- Daughter relationship into one of best friends.
We would talk in low tones about the latest gists in the company where I interned and giggle about it.

Everyone wanted to get married last year and I found myself as her handbag going everywhere with her.
Sigh... I really love my mum and I really miss her.
We talk on the phone but it's just so much different and with final year, everything is too much.

I resume second semester tomorrow and I haven't even written my last paper for first semester.
Anyway, if I could time travel, I would go back and relive those little moments with her.

I spend so much of my time focusing on the things that I think are most important but in the process I miss out on the things that do matter.
I wish I had the ability to change time and I wish I had the ability to freeze time because sometimes pictures are not enough to capture the moments, sometimes I just want to exist in that moment for as long as I possibly can.

Well, if wishes were horses, beggars would ride and up until this point I have no clue what this actually means😂.

I really do hope I have more moments with the people I love and I hope my soulmate is out there waiting to be found but until then I will do the only thing I can,
I will keep on wishing.

All the images are personal pictures from my phone