He's with you tho and I think that's the best thing. I wish he realizes this too but we are all different... And also, I'm more like you! :)

I only need him, my family, and the cashiers at the supermarkets.

About me, lol, I was going to take a boxing or zumba class then I remember my anxiety lol. The other day I literally ran from the condo swimming pool just because I was surrounded by men, lifeguard calling me me even. Triggers everywhere... I panicked.

TBH I really just want to be able to enjoy things alone w/o catching unwanted attention (because you know, I was alone). People can see when I don't have a prince charming to take to the pool. It sucks. It sucks I have to get someone to be my pretend bf because I want to swim and I don't have the courage to face another anxiety attack. I will soon take therapy before I partake in any activities.

Take the local book club for example. They meet every Tuesday at the top pub. I was going to go, but remember I'm one of those unusual people that feel edgy if I'm around others too much,

Anyway, it is really good you have someone with you. And you have your family. And supermarket cashiers lol. That's a lot of human connections already!