(Not that i am perfect but i want to see)
I have been thinking about this a lot lately.
When you are done with people and have seen all their faces. Heavy hearted on your way back home.Do you too feel that those around you are eating you up? That you are not yourself.
That you dont know the person that you have become.
That their mediocrity pulls you down or just that if there is something you believe in , it will help you getaway everysingle time and you can still stay the way you wish to. The person you so willingly strive to be.
That you can rise up above all the mess of this world, the cheapness of these people
and their fake attires.
Even when if there is somone nice and amazing out there. Just what you are looking for. They too have their sins lurking behind their back, smiling at your foolishness of believing in them and feeling they are worth it.
I have come to realise recently that its not the case. Those around you need not be evil. Its just who they are and they dont see it cause Everyone has it inside them.
Over one thing or other.
On one matter or other.
At this time or another.
None of them can open the window of their minds to everything.
And if you still think that someoneelse's thoughts can't ruin you.That their negativity can't turn over your world.
Then think.
Think again.
You are as vulnerable as anyone of us.
People screw you over. Turn their back on you. Make your heart pound. Your chest pant.
They make you question your own choices, Your own motives and your own abilities.
Your heart hurts and they would still expect you to be there the way you are. Just standing in your angelic tiara of goodness (naive in their heads).
And then just when you learn to say fuck you to the world.
Just when you start to learn to say no.
When you start to live for yourself. When you start living by yourself.
And when you dont need them anymore.
They frown at you.
But thats not the tragedy my friend.
The reality is, soon you realise that this is not a win cause you too, are now standing on there side of the fence.
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