Ahhh that is shit about your dad. It sucks to lose people we love. It sucks more to lose a parent and losing one when you are little... I would imagine that turns you into a realist at quite a young age. Which you know... kids should be thinking about comics, and TV, and eating cookies and playing Star Wars at that age. Dealing with all the depressing adult stuff so young isn’t fair. I hope you can still feel him with you in some way, and I hope today is a better day.