I believe everyone has that tiny voice at the back of their head or mind that yells obscenities when they go off track something. There's this fatigue or should I call it stress that suddenly envelopes you when you're not doing that thing you are supposed to.
Plainly, everyone has a responsibility and their whole thought is occupied with it. A man who embraces responsibility is a happy man. Why? He works on them and is stress free.
Responsibility has been at the back of mine lately because in one way or the other, I've been pushing off mine. Not because I don't want to but mostly because I feel like I'm not ready. But the question is if I'm not ready now, when will I be? Probably never which is why Responsibility, Commitment and Discipline go hand in hand.
This brings me to one of the most triggering subjects: The home. I believe the reason my mom is a single parent now is because of a man's inability to be responsible. Also, the lack of commitment to fostering better homes in Nigeria by erecting policies to ensure children's safety is one major reason we see kids on the street.
One thing I've told myself as the daughter of a single parent who's seen a lot of bad than good is, "don't judge them but avoid them."
This is a mantra I say to myself when I come across someone who society has termed a "hooligan". Growing up in a ghetto has it's perks like being there for each other but also it's horrific traits like toxicity and moral destruction.
What if my father was actually responsible and never squandered away the money my mom had worked so hard for? What if he had truly cared for his family? These are questions that I would never get answers to.
I want to believe that I can be responsible because I've seen the damage irresponsibility can cause. Not only to those around you but to yourself in terms of mental health and strength. I learned a new rule while reading Brian Tracy's Goals and been putting it to practice since two months. It's a beautiful way to douse anger before it even rears. The phrase, "I AM RESPONSIBLE" has helped me in ways you can't possibly imagine. I'm not someone you can anger easily, but when I am I don't see anything but red.
Rather than blaming the situation or people, I call myself out with that phrase and look at things I could have done differently. If there are indeed other ways to settle that matter, I'd just learn and make sure never to repeat such a mistake.
