ALL OR NOTHING!

Never let your notifications pile to over three hundred. Why? You'll find out in a bit.

Good evening Hivers. It's been three days? Yes. Three days. I haven't been around here for really serious reasons. Those who know me, know how much I've grown attatched to Hive and how much I can't bear to be away.

Fact, I have been away because of this grueling exam. Well, not so much if you're prepared for it. Still, it's hard to juggle so much especially for an only child.

The title of my post is thanks to a friend here on Hive. He called me an all or nothing gal. While I couldn't decipher what he meant then, I did during my MIA period.

The days have passed and faded gracefully in the background. Yet, I'm reminded daily of who I want to be and what it'll take. The term All or Nothing refers to picking a side and not staying neutral. You either get it done excellently or don't even try at all.

Sunday began early for me and I got home by 5pm. I couldn't even think. Before that, I'd noticed that my work on Hive was becoming rushed where I wouldn't engage the way I love to because I have to maximize my time and get other things done e.g revision of books.

That is one thing I couldn't stomach. When I got home Sunday, I had the thought of just making a post and resting so I don't let the day go by without accomplishing anything. Yet, I remembered the weekend post I made and how haphazard it was. So, I decided against it.

When I start something, I like to get it done and not just get it done, I like to get it done excellently. This is a trait I'd just discovered about myself, thanks to this friend who made the comment.

Fatigue and procrastination can kill a good work. Which is why, I didn't bother doing anything these three days because I'll feel worse should I read my works days later only to find that they are rushed, unplanned and half-cooked.

This, however, led to the opening remark. Yes. My notifications piled up so much and I had to take my time today with them.

That's not all. I've been building myself to be better and I'm not going to hide it. @tengolotodo told me once to let my confidence seep into my words. I have no idea what that means but I'm on my way to finding out.

Using some of my savings, I'd gotten my laptop repaired because, I decided to not just set goals and plan towards them, I also decided to act.

One step leads to another and another and another, till an individual finds himself/herself engaged in the race of life, forging ahead with determination and a character that's unbendable.

Yes, this upgrades gave me problems and I found myself asking why I even invested in them, yet, today, my efforts were rewarded.

I also got rewarded in health. I slept for a complete twelve hours from monday night. I woke up on Tuesday morning (or afternoon) feeling so refreshed. I'd spent the day building my innerman through meditation and self development.