Ohhh yeah and you were actually right when you were saying that I did not got to have a girlfriend at all during my middle school or high school sadly. I was mostly an outcast until I was in 12th grade and I also got bullied a lot too in middle school so I barely had friends. I see all those middle school and high school couples in many animes wishing I had a female childhood female friend that I grew up with so she would be the one for me by middle or high school as well. And sadly with today's dating scene, most women around my age are taken, married or not looking. The few available women that are left are honestly overweight ones that I have no natural attraction to. And many women that are adults are super picky cause they have all the options. I have none sadly. Younger girls are not as picky but they are also not as faithful as well. TOR really does not know me as an actual person and only sees me at the surface and make other people believe the same thing. It's sick, a lot of my misery I went through is cause of him and past convention experiences as well.