Initially I was hesitating if I should share this. It definitely comes from a side of vulnerability and things close to my heart. So here it goes. It’s a letter I wrote for what would be my future son sometime ago. This was written over eight 8 years ago.
To you, child of mine. I don’t know you yet. I’m not even ready to raise a child yet, but I do
think of you and about the environment in which you will be introduced to. My desires are only
the best for you. From the first steps that you take until the largest accomplishments that you
make before I close my eyes, I want to see you through all of it. You will make mistakes, I can
assure you that, and I specially want to be there for those times to remind you that no mistake
will change my love for you. I hope to never make you inferior for your mistakes, but instead,
I hope that you may share your mistakes with me so that together we may learn from them.
Of course, I may also make mistakes with you. I am not without flaw, and I don't think I will
ever be perfect, but one thing I do have is the desire to be an excellent father for you. I love you
son, even through it will be some time before I see you, I want you to know that I love you. I
also want you from now, that I am striving to become the father you will need me to be.
You know, the world you are coming to, at least the one I'm in right now is a very flawed world.
I am dedicating my time to make it a better place for you and even your children, but we who
desire truth, justice, and a better world have a long way to go. Although more and more, we
see society crumbling around us, we hold on to a true hope that it will all get better someday.
As a kid, I had a great life. My parents were very caring and daring in all they did with me. They
surely did better than what many should strive to be. Yet not so good things still happened to
me. Things that hurt me physically mostly emotionally. I was sometimes pickep upon,
sometimes discriminated, devalued, offended, and a lot more that would take much more time
to mention. The point is that life was difficult for me sometimes. I had to struggle with many
things. Even Algebra. All though I've been able to heal from most of the things that I went through, I would not wish them to you son. I became stronger and more wise with things that occurred to me,
but want to see you also grow wise without going through all of that. I truly want whatever is
best for you always son, and whenever things do go wrong, I hope to be a friend and father,
that can help you through hit all.
This is my first letter that I write to you, to let you know that I love you, and that I am happy to
be your father. I love you son. I will be give this to you, when you are of good age.
27/3/2012
I vaguely remember writing this letter. I remembered that I was in college and that I just wanted to write a letter for my son. For some reason I knew that I wanted to have a boy. With the time past, my son is now two years old. Turning three in June. The words from this note still remain true. Although, I understand them a lot better now.
I’ve learned so much more about fatherhood since then. In general I guess I take myself a little bit more light. Because things really will be just all right. One thing I do take away though is that I think all fathers have a general sense I want a better world for our future generations.
A more just and truthful world Is out there. I will be waiting for you there.
@deepwaters ON THE STEEM NETWORK.