GOOD DAY. I am Albert Martins, i come from Nigeria and here is a story of my past life.
While i was in Secondary School, i became addicted to ponography and masturbations. It all started when i visited a neighbour and found the children watching ponography film. The woman in the film was using bottle on myself and that fascinated me.
I began monitoring women when they went to bathroom or toilet to peep on them. I went further to read porn stories which led to masturbation.
I did not have the boldness to buy a porn movie or rent one so i stole them from video houses. I would then lie to my parents that i am ill so i could stay back home and watch the movie. My addiction was growing.
Some other times, i got sexually aroused by looking at half naked fenale pictures on newspaper. I would then use that porfion of the newspaper on myself. Though it hurts because it was rough on me and usually had injuries. But my addiction was strong and getting stronger.
A part of me rejected this action. So i would get down on my knees and beg God for forgiveness and strength. But the sight of every femal around me gave me that feeling of masturbation and then it would repeat itself again.
This went on for years. I was not having sex with ladies but was always masturbating by thinking about them. Then i met a friend who was in the same class with me. He suddenly picked interest in me and touched me in a way that aroused me. I would also touch him and we would both get erections. We would touch ourselves after school hours until we both ejaculated.
This went on for a year and as i enjoyed it i still didn't wan to but did not know how to stop. Eventually, we both finished school and parted ways but my desire increased.
My friends were not helping. We were always discussing sex and it always got me aroused and would excuse myself to the bathroom or some where secluded and masturbate. My past life was terrible. I enjoyed it but did not like it.
My change came when i met with Christ but it was not instantenous, it was gradual. My desire started shifting from pornography to God's word. Masturbation was taken over by a deep love and hunger for God.
Today, i share my story with youths as a lesaon. I am free from masturbation and pornography.
