Hi Loonatic, thank you bro for sharing your thoughs and your problems and fears, it help us all..
Hope your weekend turns out to be better or you simply find a way of seeing it better!
The grey weather doest help aswell, so dont take any negative toughts to serious, try seeing the good things you can enjoy if you want to..
btw, i want some of those concentrates! could you hook me up? :))