YOU Know, I do understand. Its just the way things are no sob story but to explain what it is we go through sounds pathetic at times. But it's just our lives at times. In my head I knwo If I could just have the money and the people that would listen and make me a body suit and support brace that would have velcro straps for reienforcement. and a chair that would help support my body in a way that it feel wiegtless I feel as if i could heal, with not moving and fasting... But why would they want to make those things for me... Idk I have a wierd brain... It's all the dab