Sorry to hear about your brother, man. I hope you're dealing with it as best as possible. Dealing with loss is frustrating, it never goes away and you just have to learn to live with it. It's fucking rough. Especially when it's still fresh. I've had two of my friends pass away since this last March. I'm ready for this year to be over with at this point. If you ever need to talk or anything, feel free to hit me up on discord. Always got an open ear for you if needed, dood.