Don't feel too weird about it. This game is a fucking sleeper for a lot of people, I really don't know why it went so under the radar when it released. I think I stumbled onto it at a video rental store when I was around 14 and was glued to this shit for a whole weekend. I specifically remember being a brain dead chud on the phone with 3 people for hours while playing this because I just couldn't let go of my erect cock from it.