Hey @holoz0r, I can see the struggle and I hope you realize that you should do what is best for you. I think anyone that respects you would want that. This is just a game, and if you don't enjoy playing it anymore, then its ok to stop. No one should feel compelled to participate if they don't enjoy it.

I hope you get your passion back for life. I know things get confusing for everyone, but I think you will figure out what works for you. You're a good dude and full of energy.

Thank you for all you've done over the years and hope you find what motivates you to wake up every day and be happy! Take care and don't be shy to come back too if you ever get the impulse!