It’s the month of holy Ramadan. But do you know why Muslims fast? Yes, to earn more and greater rewards from Allah. Yes, you are right. But do you know why Allah has blessed us with Ramadan? Let me tell you the reason if you don’t know that. To draw us closer and closer to Allah. In Ramadan, we practice only positive acts. It teaches us to be modest and thoughtful. What may be a more fantastic approach to serve the almighty rather than aiding and appreciating his best creatures through humanity! Before I offer you anything, let’s learn what happened today.
I woke up at 11 am. I just managed to clean my face; my mother hurried toward me and told me to check on my brother immediately. After finding my brother’s whereabouts, I rushed to the spot without knowing anything. What I noticed was that my brother was arguing with a woman. As that woman’s face was covered with a hijab, I couldn’t recognize her. But that didn’t matter to me at all. I was distraught, upset, and annoyed with the woman. Thinking how she could even dare to carry off this behavior drove me insane. As in my neighborhood, my complete family is one of the most potent individuals. Therefore, no one even tries to raise their tone with us. For your better understanding, from my youth till date in my locality, even my mates never disputed with me. Usually, my cousins or siblings would dare to quarrel with me while gaming. So, there was just one idea running through my mind how the fuck can she? Who gave her those cojones? Doesn’t she know us! She is even standing on our land. So, I couldn’t hold myself. I instructed her to move aside immediately, showing fury in my bulging eyes. I could feel that uncertainty and fear in her. That delighted my ego. She was going to say something. But she wasn’t welcomed at all. I told her to keep quiet. Not even a single word. She didn’t even dare to look at me. I scold my young brother stating why you are shouting! Don’t you know who you are? We don’t even discuss with folks like them. We order. She knew what I meant. Her eyes were my testimony. My honor.
Then I realized she was constructing a barrier around her land with the help of some laborers. I asked my brother what had happened. He told me that lady was known to him. It was we who hit the deal of her property. We welcomed her warmly, but she betrayed us by going to our rival for constructing the boundary around her property. That wasn’t acceptable to us. She didn’t even bother to consult us. In doing so, even her bricks were on our property. So I asked the workers can any of them fly. If not, then how they will remove those from my property because they shouldn’t even dare to walk on my land. I suggested to the lady, saying only one way they could do that, and that has to be an apology from her to my young brother, who is almost half of her age. She being helpless was giving me heavenly peace. As my elder cousin, an elected government leader, allowed her to go now, she left the place. Out of my brother’s respect, I let her go by threatening she should forget about her bricks. She left with a heart full of sorrow.
After all of that, I came back home around 4 pm. I took a bath and refreshed my mind. I helped my mum make the juice and organize the table. As we bought iftaar from outside, there wasn’t much labor to accomplish today. I always love to provide aid. If you have checked my introduction, you have branded me a hypocrite by then. And I comply. After breaking my fast, I wondered what have I done! What’s the point of fasting didn’t break any of my fasts in the last six years. I always try to tell folks excellent stuff. I have even fought for that. I have even suffered in that process. I fought with the officials of my university alone, something no one would even dare. I am not frightened of anything. It’s in my blood by default. But today, I was terrified to listen to my heart. I wanted to apologize. But my ego, my craze for power, was holding me back. So, I didn’t dare to do it and wanted to ignore that forever.
Then a popup shows up indicating a notification someone voted on my post. It made me question why I came here. To change the thoughts of people. Give them the courage to accept and take the appropriate steps. But today, I couldn’t do so. I questioned myself, am I not cheating with the people of hive who are reading my pieces and agreeing with my thoughts. I accumulate a lot of bravery to call that lady. I opened up myself and my feelings, revealing how I got one step further from God today. I seek an apology and her forgiveness. She acted on God’s will and forgave me.
I have never been this brave before. Today I finally feel free. This is the day that I have tasted independence. Freedom from my learnings, which were taught by the society. Freedom from my principles, which I grew up knowing. Freedom from my ego, which was passed on by my civilization.
I hope now I have grasped the significance of Ramadan. Why it is termed the month of transition, this is the finest Ramadan of my life. And I promise to carry forward this understanding with me.
