At the beginning of this year, there were plans in place on how my year would go (my new year revolution) but, sadly, it has been 7 months now and I'm struggling to make one of them happen. This week has been rough, it feels like the struggle has increased. Nothing feels right anymore even my sleep is been disturbed, I went to the pharmacy to complain and got meds but still didn't work.
So recently I was checking one of my flash drives and I saw a music folder, so I decided to check it, I started scrolling and saw my old playlist then I decide to listen to them, it brought back a lot of good and sad memories but there are these three songs that really touched my soul and I can't get it off my mind and the more I listen to it, I tend to understand the message the song was passing to me...
The first song is Jesus take the wheels by Carrie Underwood, one of the reasons I can relate to this song is because, I made my plans without involving God, then despite a hard time I forgot how God has been good to me. Even the little I was able to survive wasn't by my power and in the act of not appreciating I'm kind of losing it. I forgot I can't do this on my own, I forgot I'm no one without God. After listening to the song countless times, it brought tears to my eyes and I started asking for forgiveness and promising to change. My favorite line are
LYRICS
Fifty miles to go, and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind, and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
'Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
And save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Another one is Miley Cyrus - The climb, this song is about when you are trying to get there and something keep weighing you down, like a voice in your head or maybe when you have no support. The song actually tells you that you shouldn't worry about it, just focus on where you are going and this happens to a lot of people including myself. We should know that we need to keep our head high and there will always be another challenge after we overcome this but that doesn't matter just focus on where you are going.
LYRICS
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The third one is Bruno Mars - today my life begins. Doesn't matter how many mistakes you have made or how many wrong turns you have taken, No matter how messed up life can be. You can start again. Doesn't matter the age or time, just start again and break out of the chains and focus on your journey
Here is my favorite part of the song
LYRICS
i've been working hard so long
seems like pay has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if i'd ever heal again
ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (ohh)
i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin
i know i can make it, today my life begins
yesterday has come and gone
and i've learnt how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win
After listening to this many times then I could understand the message, I let God take the wheel, and I start my life from the beginning and focus on the climb.
I want to say thank you 