The other night I just took three tablets of 50 mg Diclofenac, my NSAID pain reliever just to prepare me for my dialysis yesterday. It worked good because even yesterday night and this morning the analgesic effects still kicked.
But later this day I can feel my body is having some pains again. It will definitely make get some hard time sleeping so I took another couple of tablets which just totaled to 100 mg of Diclofenac.
It just sucks when you think that you have an improved pain only to realize that it was just the effect of your analgesic. Still I am optimistic that my body pains will improve within a month or so and would free me from the misery of enduring torture and possibly weakness because my strength dwindled over the years like a candle being consumed and yet with the grace and mercy of God can still able to bathe myself into the bathroom. That is just what I needed right now and of course the prayers from those that cares for me in the steem community.
I never also realized that dialysis was the major block on my life but clearly now it was not, it already was the least of my worries. What I am concerned more is how I can stop this pain like a wrecking ball pounding me into a mass of meat and guts, it is so hard to manage and if I would sink my head into the sand it will not make a difference like a seen ugly thing that cannot be unseen.
So with all what is left on my mental and physical might I am expending just to save myself from further disfigurement, immobility, disability, and pain. I am still fortunate that despite my physical condition I am able to sustain my needs because of God and my friends here at steem working in the background, you all give me hope because there is still there waiting for me to grab hold unto and cry success. Al of that will not happen if it will not be in the will of God but I guess it will be his will and I am excited about it.