It is different if you yourself would worry about your own health but it is different if you begin to worry for others as much or more than yourself. That is what the covid-19 pandemic brings me, it is not just a simple ailment where if you get sick to it you can just go to the hospital and get treated. The factor is that your family members or those that got into contact with you are joining the party, they will get automatically quarantined for a period of time which might mean that you will cause disruptions into everyone's lives up to the town level.
Often you will get prejudiced by people and they will start to veer away from you if you happen to get quarantined in your home or a family member had gotten sick or worse died because of the Corona virus.
It is a special case for me because I am physically dependent on my parents, they give what I needed like when I needed to go to the bathroom, change clothes, bring me food in my room here. All those will get disruptions if they would get sick of even some sort of ailments. So I can't afford them to get sick, their function for me is just indispensable and nothing really can replace the love and care of a parent to its child.
It does suck to be in this situation but this had been my set-up ever since I wasn't able to walk freely anymore. I can live in a lockdown situation but it is different when there is a worry that if somebody gets sick in my family, I do not have much family or have much people that would care for me welfare which is why I am afraid about this pandemic as it would tear me apart because of the potential complications that it would bring to my already unfortunate life.
I am hoping that soon a cure for this covid-19 so that we can return to our normal lives even though my life has a tiny chance of getting some noticeable improvement but it would be a delight in my feelings to know that there would be no more threat of virus anymore so I will just begin to worry about my self again and consider these past things to be just a bad nightmare.
