Yesterday I was just feeling so "Toxic" as they defined it in the dialysis world. It is the feeling of either you are having a hypertensive crisis, so nauseated and vomiting, or so waterlogged that you cannot breathe anymore, etc. But yesterday I was feeling so ill that I had this bitter taste in my mouth and that usual urea-like breath that I am somewhat smelling and it just don't want to make me eat. I was also a bit waterlogged.
It is a bad body feeling so to say and only patients knows what I am talking about. But for many years I had endured that situation where the feeling of "ill" all through the years just made me tough and it made me handle it with patience and that is why I always kept my calm and do the necessary things not to make anything worse.
But yesterday after finally getting hookked to the dialysis, and since I am using a better filter "Dialyzer" that make it pass the bigger moleculed waste products from my body. It "magically" just makes you feel well again. You then get your appetite back because you no longer had this lingering "urea breath" that you are having. After actually one hour after hook-up you can already feel the cleaning action based on the filter and how fast they spin the blood flow around you and the machine.
I couldn't be more grateful and thankful each and everytime I get dialyzed because I am getting a rescue from a possible death if I didn't have it. I don't like itt being in this situation actually, nobody does. It doesn't make you normal again. You couldn't go to places easily because you need to get your dialysis no matter what ad skipping it is not an option.
For one thing , being a dialysis patient, if not for these bone changes made me weak and thin physically and is coupled with hypertension. The effect is you cannot do normal things like other people does like for doing strenuous sports. I could have done basketball or soccer if only I had a healthy body.So a lot of options in this life was crossed out for me but some options I had discovered that I maybe liked doing like what STEEMIT is giving and it is a slick way to find help and discover real friends all over the world.
I love writing my world, yesterday I also managed to submit some post even though I felt so ill because I need to use my time for a productive way and there is nothing that I can do for the moment except writing. I can also write when I am in pain and what I do is to rest a while and then go for it again until I could finish a post.
Dialysis and STEEMit community, a reason to be thankful for. One for giving a chance to live and the other one giving a reason to live and make it better for someone, even in a far a away land, with no hope in sight but only at STEEMIT. God help me and God bless friends at steemit community.
