I really needed to put some protein in my body, not that I am lacking in protein, it is just I could eat more if I like the food especially if I am craving about it at the moment. So I just had though of buying a crispy pork leg that we ordered for lunch today.
I was the only one who would eat this piece of pork leg, my father will only take a pice while my mother doesn't like much this kind of food. She is just okay with simple foods, mainly fish cooked with vinegar, soups, and vegetable and vegetable salad.
I my self could eat but not really much especially after I had taken my breakfast where I am also taking my parathyroid medicine afterwards. Then after that I will suffer nausea which hinders me of ever having to get some urge to eat my meals. I end-up eating sandwich just for me not to get a low blood sugar at night time lest I will maybe get hungry and wake my mother in the middle of the night to ask for some food.
I actually like almost all foods, it is just now that the food is my desire to eat otherwise I will not be able to finish them all up and I am disheartened if I would ever see that I am wasting food if I had made a left-over. So our dog will finish what I would not be able to finish.
Heck I could maybe able to grow a pig in its pen if I were to feed it everyday with my left-over food because eating now is very difficult for me. It is like I am having a fever without being feeling chilly or hot with my very poor appetite. So everyday for me is a survival mode with regards to eating, not because there is no food around but I was always forcing myself to down a few tablespoons of food in my belly. 
I hope that one day I will regain back the normality of my body even in that aspect of my life and it is just funny that I am left with just a small number of years and all that will just be spent in trying to survive and not enjoying even with as simple and almost negligible issue of having a good appetite.
