Beautiful write up :)

I myself have fallen victim to this mentality:

Me and my girlfriend at the time were travelling around Australia and Asia when we both turned 21. We had been in a relationship for a year before that, and when we came back home we both decided to study at the same university (bad bad mistake, I'd say never set your goals around another person like that, always try to be happy for yourself FIRST).

I was deeply in love with that woman and had made plans in my head to ask her, whether she wanted to marry me after the second semester. Well, things turned out different (as they mostly do in life). I got very sick from stress of university and feeling the pressure of an already crumbling relationship, lost 15kg body weight in 3 months when she decided to dump me for another guy from university.

After that I fell into a deep depression, cancelled my studies and basically dwelled in my basement for the next 3 years, contemplating all my life choices and whether it was my fault the whole thing turned out that way. I think at this point in time (still being young, not knowing where you belong in life) it really hurt to get dropped like a hot smelly egg.

But at some point I realized that wasting away my precious twenties would not make the situation better, I guess it was when I first decided to stop smoking weed everyday and got a clear head of thinking again, that I realized how much joy you can get from just living for yourself and working on your goals..

But to this day, I still feel a little bit frustrated as to how things turned out after everything being so perfect. When she told me that she had cheated on me with this guy, a world broke and since that day it is very hard for me to trust anyone, like I did before. I hope with time that feeling will pass and I will hopefully find happiness again!

Reading your text made me think about that there are hundreds of thousands of people that have gone through a similiar bad time, and it has to be possible to turn things around for yourself and still find a valuable partner for life, but is it really?

I see so many of my peers in my age just f*cking around and having casual sex rather than building a relationship to that person, and that is just not for me. I sometimes feel like I'm just a little bit different to many people around me, but maybe that is just my subjective way and what has happened to me :P

Looking forward to your next essay :)
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