I can't explain it, but I have always had a thing for design. I have an eye for good designs, and I have always wanted to be one. However, this great love for the skill didn't automatically make me become a great designer. That was when I knew passion wasn't enough when it comes to pursuing your goals. I really don't know why, but no matter how many times I tried to pick up the skill, I flopped crazily.
I even bought courses on Udemy, but I never saw them through till the end. It wasn't hard, to be honest. I already knew how to use Photoshop from my photo editing skills. I know how to use many tools on it, and all I just needed to do was apply it in design. It's not even like I didn't understand what I needed to do, lol.
I think my biggest problem in achieving mastery in this skill was overthinking. I would see really nice designs made by others and just get overwhelmed, and I would begin to wonder if I would ever be able to create something as amazing as that. If I knew what I know now, I would have actively eliminated those kinds of thoughts from my head.
I wanted to be perfect, knowing how much I loved it—forgetting the fact that I needed to build myself to a particular level of perfection. I'd also need to practice a lot, and the most inevitable part was making mistakes or even facing projects I might feel like I didn't understand so much and would not be able to do.
I had a long way to go, but well, I stopped halfway and found another route. I still love design so much, I really do. But will I ever go back to it? I really don't think so. I am on the path of being a developer, and the deeper I get into that, the harder it gets to allow myself to want to take on any additional skill.
I didn't only attempt graphic design, I did product design for a while as well. I already started designing landing pages, and I was showing up for my online course as well. To be honest, I always thought I would end up a product designer. I never thought coding was for me until I decided to go into it.
Now, with each passing day, I keep falling in love with it more and more, and I can't wait to start building apps and bringing ideas to life. There is no limit to what anyone can achieve in life, and it's even okay to be confused about which path to take. However, one should keep trying and trying till you find what was truly made for you. Better still, you can build a genuine passion for something and gain mastery in it.
I don't believe that passion should come only from a natural place—that's so overrated. You can literally build your passion for anything from scratch, and everything will still work out. The most important thing is doing what actually works.
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