I find it absolutely very funny and surprising how my last post was about me deciding to begin a writing streak and then boom! I went MIA. Truth is, it wasn't deliberate, and I almost started beating myself up for not showing up like I initially planned to, but we are not going to be doing that in 2026. January up till this month has been a lot for me. Thinking about it now, the details are actually very foggy, but the most important part is that I am back now, with a major gist, in fact!
Generally, I even think I am in a better place than I was when the year started, and that is because I was able to achieve a major milestone in my life. Guys, you cannot begin to imagine how long I have been wanting to achieve that goal. I finally did, and it's been surreal, to be honest. I made myself a promise, or let's say "I manifested it," when 2025 was coming to an end. I told myself it wouldn't be beyond February, and guess what!
I finally moved out of my parents' house into my own apartment. I planned to move last year, but my plans failed and I had to stay back longer. In my bones, I knew it was time, and I tried everything I could to make it happen. I would have called this my "big girl apartment," but that is not my reality right now, lol. As prepared as I was in my head about moving, the actual thing playing out is a totally different story. However, I still wouldn't change a thing about it. I knew for a fact that it would most likely be tough at first, but I will have to stay strong as it will eventually turn out better. I am very aware of that, and yeah, I guess this is me going through the process.
This phase is such a big deal to me, although it is also psychologically exhausting, but I know it is going to get better. I am doing all I can to get myself together and create a solid plan for my life. It's beyond knowing what to do, I have to put in the work and have a map to follow. I have so much I want to do, so much I need to explore, and I cannot wait to get started. Adulthood is a whole lot, to be honest. I am mostly overthinking, anxious, scared, and sometimes in a very hopeful and good mental state.
In all of these, I would genuinely call this my humble beginning and an actual entry into the reality of adulthood. It's been chaotic and humbling but honestly so amazing as well!
There is so much to write about, so much to journal. I got a pet at the beginning of the year! I went back to photography to do it professionally this time around! It is an exciting phase, and I will be journalling a whole lot.
Cheers to a new beginning, by the way. And yessss, I think I am fully back now. And maybe I will even restart my streak. So, maybe let's call this Day 1, I am really rooting for me.
