leaving the city, going off-grid, and being more self-reliant.

Uhm I have similar feelings too. I am learning to be grateful for the lessons and the journey. To say: ok, this is what I have learned by now and it is ok even if it has cost me time and money. The time part is truly the most important. I feel like I am not alone in this and that you are also still figuring it out. It is ok, we will get through it and become a better version of ourselves

I am digging, oh my ....digging deep