I began feeling a sense of guilt. That, followed by a sense that something was going to happen. It was going to be stolen or the salesperson would call me saying there was a mistake and I needed to bring it back. That inability to enjoy the moment is the clearest example of trauma brain I can think of in my life.

Oh I can find myself so much in this paragraph. A sort of impostor syndrome mixed with fear, anxiety and disbelief. And yes , this is all about past trauma and how early poverty can affect one's mindset. This Tesla is a great manifestation of an abundant mindset, I am happy for you! Drive it....to the moon haha.