Awwww your comment melts my heart, you're so sweet!
I can relate so much with what you have said. Giving out of obligation is a frustration making machine. I have now realized that we often do that because, as you have pointed it out, we believe that we are not enough. That we have to bedazzle our presence. I felt that a lot. And then people feel that you feel that and treat you accordingly by not giving the love you expect .
I think that the source of this scarcity feeling came from childhood, when often as children we felt we are not enough, that we have to do something to earn love. At least this is what I think it was my case. And it took me years to realize this .

If someone does not appreciate your presence.....well that screams loud and clear: you don't belong there and you should politely get yourself out of that circumstance. Nowadays I am so attentive to details that if I talk face to face to someone and that person checks on their phone repeatedly I am out. I politely leave knowing that it is not worth the time. Without self confidence and knowing that you are enough, no one could do this and feel no frustration.
I think that all people have a secret journey and it is wonderful to be able to give them love and be ok with the way they know how to receive it. People act according to their level of conscioussness, I now feel that I can't blame anyone for not knowing how to give or receive. God knows I have been on both sides.
The art of living in the present is a constant work. I strive to make progress and work on myself daily and analyse my own behaviour. In this lies the secret to inner peace as we can't control others.
Women are powerful creatures. So are men. It is easy to be broken and hurt others, it is the hardest challenge to regain power and choose to be good and forgive your tormentors.
All of these lessons came from God, I was only there to learn them.
I truly appreciate you stopped by! Hugs🤗🤗