Funny thing that I am also 31 and just like you, I want to explore it all. I think that your father would be very proud of you because you realized that your life is your own. Naysayers will always find a flaw, no matter how much you strive to perfection.
You got your stash of art supplies pumped. Awesome! I was thinking about ordering watercolour paper too, thought about Arches as I have heard oh so joyous reviews about it.

A post ending with a book recommandation😍 Can this be any better? Absence can be needed as we artists are moody and feel the need to get back in our cocoon once in a while