I haven't written in the journal since I got back from the swell. I really haven't written much period (.) except for some crazed channeling of the ghost of an ancient Irish land pirate prophet from Utah and I feel like I need and want to write something but this is all you get.
All I get.
All we get.
I even ingested a smidgen of those fun guys that make me think I write like a Tom Robbins/Alexandra David-Neel hybrid on a circus carousel in the middle of a red desert, but it's the end of the day and all I feel is tired. So, again, this is all we get.
It's not much, is it.
I frequently talk about my voluntary state of loneliness and solitude here in the collective like it's some kind of a big deal that's not really a big deal because that's pretty much all it is and isn't. I like to talk about it and I like to think about it because I like to figure things out of their hidey holes in the repressed caverns of my being so I can acknowledge the things and set them free. They deserve to be free, the things I figure out. They don't deserve to live a life of panicked fluttering around inside my gooey carnal cage like a trapped bird. Hell no. They need to get out there. See the world. Fuck other people up.
Anyway, back on the topic of solitude and loneliness I was thinking today while frying up something smelly in the frying pan that maybe writers are just lonely people. Maybe we write because we need someone to talk to, but we don't really want to talk to anyone because once we do we stop being lonely and then we stop writing.
Then I asked myself why the fuck I needed to identify and categorize every aspect of my character like I'm the topic of a college research paper and why I was so hell-bent on clinging to a story that really isn't as romantic as it sounds or as it looks on paper or screen.
Then I ate what I was cooking, which tasted much better than it smelled, took a shower, and wrote this post.
Fucking masterpiece if you ask me. (You definitely should not ask me. I have no idea wtf I'm talking about.)
And now I'm gong to bed.
This is my entry for the #monomad challenge, held daily in the Black and White Community.
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